I’m That Girl.

A couple of days ago I was feeling kind of “meh,” starting my day. There was no particular reason….just, “meh.” Idk. Maybe it’s the seasons changing, the nippy weather, work, or “Red Rover, Red Rover, who brought herself over.” I don’t know. I just wasn’t feeling it. HOWEVER, by the end of the day, I was feeling encouraged and like THAT girl! #deadass

What changed??? Obviously I listened to Beyonce, but before then, I had an amazing convo with my therapist. (Yes, I have a therapist, and we will talk about my therapist origin story at a later date.) She really helped to remind me who I am.

I was updating her on some of the things that have happened in my life from our last convo, which included updates on a situation with a guy. (They aren’t usually the topic of my sessions, but it was an update, so it came up.)

As I was talking, I realized that some of the things I was saying was coming off a little contradictory. Earlier in our conversation I updated her about running my half marathon under my goal time, which requires mental and physical toughness, and was like two a-MAZING feats in one for me, but then I started talking about this guy who I didn’t think I was good enough for….smh.

“Girl, STAND UP!!!” That is what I am yelling to myself after the conversation, because “NO. MA’AM. What are you DOING?! What are you SAYING?!”

My therapist reminded me of all of the great things that I have accomplished/am accomplishing, and those great characteristics that I possess. As she was saying all of this, I was looking like, “Dang. Is that me?”

And then I realized, “…wait…that IS me!”

The words of encouragement were already working, but then she took it to another level: She added some scripture in there, which made it really real! It’s one thing to be reminded of the things that I’ve done and am doing, but every now and again I need to be reminded of who GOD is and who I am in HIM.

Psalm 139:13-14 “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”

2 Timothy 1:7 “For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love, and self-discipline.”

Psalm 27:3 “Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then I will be confident.”

Baby, I wanted to throw my phone, because that was a message and a word that I needed to hear at that moment, and honestly one that needs to be heard ALL of the time! I walked away feeling encouraged, and I just want to be able to offer up that same encouragement to someone on this day.

It might not be a guy or a girl who is making you feel like you are not enough. It might be work that makes you feel like you can’t do it or that you don’t deserve more. It might be family who is always on your case about something. Or it might be you watching people get and experience all of life’s beautiful moments, and you’re thinking something is wrong with you because your time hasn’t come yet. STOP!

Yes, we all have moments where we feel down, but when we remember WHO we are and WHOSE we are, we shouldn’t stay in our down moments for too long. Just remember, we are created in HIS image, so you know there is nothing junk about us.

And if no one has told you, or if you haven’t told yourself today: “You are an amazing human and you are ALWAYS enough.” Give yourself grace on THIS day and every day, and walk boldly, facing all of life’s many challenges without fear because you know who you belong to.